I Want to Be Your Hands and Feet

This week I’m participating in a summer youth camp at my church where we worship and listen to a speaker in the morning, and then go out into our communities to do service projects. Several things happened today, both good and somewhat not-so-good.

First, the worship band this morning was AH-MAZING! The song that definitely opened my eyes was “Send Me Out” by Fee, one of my favorite Christian bands.

Lyrics:

“Jesus, Lord of my salvation, Savior of my soul, send me out to the world to make You known. Jesus, King of every nation, this world’s only hope, send me out to the world to make You known. Send me out to the world

I wanna be Your hands and feet. I wanna be Your voice every time I speak. I wanna run to the ones in need, in thename of Jesus. I wanna give my life away, all for Your kingdoms sake. Shine a light in the darkest place, in the name of Jesus. In the name of Jesus

Carry to the broken hearted mercy You have shown. Send me out to the world to make You known. And to the ones in need of rescue, lead me I will go. Send me out to the world to make You known. Send me out to the world

I wanna be Your hands and feet. I wanna be Your voice every time I speak. I wanna run to the ones in need, in the name of Jesus. I wanna give my life away, all for Your kingdoms sake. Shine a light in the darkest place, in the name of Jesus. In the name of Jesus

Here am I, I will go. Send me out to make You known. There is hope for every soul, send me out, send me out. Here am, I will go. Send me out to make You known. There is hope for every soul, so send me out.

I wanna be Your hands and feet. Be Your voice every time I speak. I wanna run to the ones in need, in the name of Jesus. I wanna give my life away, all for Your kingdoms sake. Shine a light in the darkest place, in the name of Jesus.”

After hearing this song, my motivation was just spiked, and I was super excited about serving others today. BUT when we arrived in an impoverished community to have fun and play games with little kids, I just wasn’t feeling it. Let me just come right out and say this: I’m not a kid person. I literally have no experience with little children, so I’m just a very awkward person around them. Ask me to clean, I got your back. Tell me to make cards for the elderly, I’ll spend hours. But expect me to do something with children, and I’ll disappoint you.

It’s not that I didn’t want to show God’s love and participate in the activities, it’s just that I didn’t know how. I don’t have enough experience serving yet, and I was just diving too fast into it by having to hang out with these children I know nothing about. I don’t think my group or leaders were disappointed in me, but I was deeply disappointed in myself. I want to be a good example to others and do everything I can for God’s glory, but my fears and insecurities got the best of me.

Maybe this is what Moses felt in the book of Exodus. I just finished reading about him last week, and I’m surprised I’m able to make such a quick parallel to my life. You see, Moses had fears and insecurities just like me. Hey, we all do. And when God told him he was going to free the Israelites and become a leader of the nation, his fears and insecurities crept into his mind, telling him he wasn’t worthy of the job. He didn’t think anyone would listen to him, and he used his disabilities (speech impediment) and shortcomings (murder and past sins) as excuses.

Moses and I were both put in situations where we weren’t exactly sure of ourselves. He made excuses using his disabilities, and I made excuses using my lack of experience. Moses and I both felt insecure about the job we were faced with, afraid of not being worthy or doing things right. The difference between us, however, is that Moses ultimately allowed God to use him, while I didn’t do nearly anything today.

I want to be like Moses. He was a leader with full devotion and faith in God. He trusted Him with his LIFE. The miracles he performed and the amazing things he did just make me want to gape and say, “Wow, I wish God could do things through me like he did for Moses.”

The reality is, HE CAN. God can work through each and every one of us to fulfill our ultimate purpose here on earth. The one thing he requires from us, though, is trust. The key to a relationship with Jesus and living out a miraculous life for God’s glory is trust. It’s only a five-letter word yet it’s something we all have trouble with from time to time, some more than others.

This morning, the verse and reading in my devotional book really related to the events that happened today. I was in a hurry, I wasn’t really thinking and diving deep into it at the time, but looking back on it, I realize what it really meant.

“Therefore, we may boldly say: The Lord is my Helper, I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?” (Hebrews 13:6)

This verse just struck a chord after realizing the internal struggles that occurred within me today. It goes on to say:

“…Today, summon the courage to follow God. Even if the path seems difficult, even if your heart is fearful, trust your Heavenly Father and follow Him. Trust Him with your day and your life. Do His work, care for His children, and share His Good News. Let Him guide your steps. He will not lead you astray.”

Isn’t this just amazing? It’s like God is speaking directly to me through this. I wish I had remembered this earlier today, but at least I took the time to reread it now. If I hadn’t, I could’ve missed out on an important lesson God is trying to show me.

Realizing this, I’m actually ready to go back to camp tomorrow. I’m not sure what tasks I’ll be faced with, but I’m willing to trust that God will guide me through the day and use me for His glory. If I had just trusted in Him today and pushed aside my fears and insecurities, I could’ve done so much more with those kids who may not know or see God’s love or forgiveness yet. Realizing this now makes me a bit sad and disappointed, I’ll admit, but I think God may have planted those fears inside me for a reason. Maybe He just wanted me to realize how much I need Him.

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3 comments

  1. Anonymous

    I praise God for bringing me to your blog. I am blessed and encouraged. Keep going. I believe we are all beautifully and wonderfully made for a purpose. God’s purpose, part of His grate plan to give glory to Him through the love of Jesus.

    • jessiekaitlyn

      This is so encouraging for me to hear! Thank you for this, and I’m so glad you have been blessed through what God is doing in me

  2. John Nunez

    Jessie:

    I read some of your blog postings – awesome… you “get it” and it’s awesome to see someone so young have such a grasp of what it means to be a child of God… undeserving as we are, HE loves US!!!

    Don’t underestimate what impact you make on those around you… today you ministered to ME!

    I wanted to specifically comment on today’s blog… so you weren’t “enthused” about today’s service project… firstly, each one of us, created in HIS IMAGE, have been uniquely made! We are ALL DIFFERENT and each of us have been given certain spiritual gifts. “Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God’s grace in its various forms.” (1 Peter 4:10NIV)

    YOUR spiritual gifts are different than mine, are different than Nette’s, different than, (fill in the blank)… I’d encourage you to focus on two things:

    1) find your spiritual gift… there is something that God gave you – something with which you were programmed from the beginning that, if tapped into, will set you soaring in every part of your life – your spiritual walk, service to others, career, etc.! I’d recommend reading Max Lucado’s “Cure for the Common Life”… I’ll let you borrow my copy if you promise to return it to me…
    2) “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men,” (Colossians 3:23)…

    that’s it! Find your gift and use it… and if you can’t use your gift at that moment, just show up and try and give it all for Him!

    so your thing isn’t kids… what could you have done differently today? Firstly, you could cut yourself a little slack and not be so hard on yourself… you showed up, willing to participate, and DID NOT COMPLAIN!!! You smiled, were respectful and polite – an EXCELLENT representative of Jesus Christ! How different would it have been if instead you complained about the heat, the ride, the kids, the (fill in the blank)… What else could you perhaps have done? Maybe talk to your peers while there and see what is going on in their lives – meet some new people, let them get to know you and see who you are… who knows the impact you could have on the person next to you that is “serving” with you! My point is this… show up, be willing to serve happily, keep your eyes open for opportunities around you, and continue to do it cheerfully and willingly!

    earlier I quoted 1Peter… following is the same verse(s) in “The Message”… sounds strikingly similar to the message we heard today… is that coincidence? Or do you think that it’s by design?

    “1 Peter 4:10 (The Message)

    7-11Everything in the world is about to be wrapped up, so take nothing for granted. Stay wide-awake in prayer. Most of all, love each other as if your life depended on it. Love makes up for practically anything. Be quick to give a meal to the hungry, a bed to the homeless—cheerfully. Be generous with the different things God gave you, passing them around so all get in on it: if words, let it be God’s words; if help, let it be God’s hearty help. That way, God’s bright presence will be evident in everything through Jesus, and he’ll get all the credit as the One mighty in everything—encores to the end of time. Oh, yes!” (1Peter 4:7-11 The Message)

    look forward to seeing you tomorrow! I can tell you that my gift is NOT pulling weeds… :-)

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