Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you– Psalm 139:7-12
Sometimes I feel like King David hiding in a cave.
Venturing out is just too dangerous. Everywhere he turns, he encounters enemy after enemy. They are looking to kill him.
He fears for his life. All he can do is wait in the dark and beg the Lord to avenge him, to give him back even just a small portion of what he once had.
And all the while, David’s eyes are becoming accustomed to the dark. He’s becoming accustomed to hiding and running.
The question that remains is, can he outrun God? Will he reach a point of no return as he dives deeper into this dark, empty cave?
No darkness is too dark or impenetrable for the light of God’s presence.
I, like King David, have found myself again and again in an all-too-familiar cave. Enemies all around. Blocked entrance. No room to breathe.
Darkness upon darkness upon darkness.
And yet I can testify that the Lord has never left me. It doesn’t matter how alone I feel. The reality is He’s been there all along. He’s been fighting my enemies. He’s been paving a way out for me. He’s been breathing air into my lungs.
There is no such thing as too much dark or too much sadness or too much sin or too much pain. At least, those things aren’t too much for the healing touch of God.
I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. (Ephesians 3:17-19)
Sometimes you will feel like the gap between where you are and where you long to be is just too wide.
But His love is wider still.
Sometimes you will feel like time is going by too slowly and it’s been far too long. You’re too far gone.
But His love is longer still.
Sometimes you will feel like the wall you built to block out the world is too high to ever climb over, too strong to ever break down.
But His love is higher still.
Sometimes you will feel like you’re in over your head and the hole you’ve found yourself in is just too deep.
But His love is deeper still.
There is no place we can run that God can’t follow. And while that might not sound reassuring to some, it is the greatest of blessings. There will come a time when you’re tired of the darkness (I know I sure am), and that will be the opportunity for the greatest story of redemption ever told to unfold.
Let His light pierce the darkness. Let’s get out of these caves.
As I was reading through the book of Psalms the other day, I stumbled across a prayer of David’s that really stood out to me.
“Show me, O Lord, my life’s end and the number of my days; let me know how fleeting my life is.” Psalm 39:4
I felt like this should be our prayer too.
In today’s society, everything is so fast paced and routinely planned. Many people wake up, go to work/school, go home, and then sleep with a few events mixed in here and there. Sure, there are some really cool parts of the day. But most often, you can find people just going about their daily business, mind half asleep alongside an attitude brimmed with negativity and stress.
I think God wants more of us. I think God wants us to have a vision- His vision. I think God wants us to do something- something big, of His proportion.
And it seems like this mundane living is what’s stopping people from doing amazing things. What if we truly did realize and understand how short and fleeting our life is?
Would we not stop wasting it on pointless websites, watching pointless TV shows, talking about pointless things, and regretting pointless mistakes? There is definitely enjoyment to be found in the little things in life like a new CD or a short chat with a friend, but it’s the distraction of those things that I think needs to be done away with.
We are holding ourselves back from our full potential.
We need to truly see that our days are numbered. And another one isn’t guaranteed.
What would you do if you only had 30 days left to live?
Would you make goals and then not follow through on them? Would you procrastinate that important phone call or hoard your possessions and wealth?
I think if we were made more aware of how short our life really is, our relationships would improve with genuine honesty and our passions would be followed with hard work and dedication.
So today I’m asking God that He opens my eyes, our eyes, to how fleeting life truly is so that we can begin chasing after what truly matters.